I hate my brain, it betrays me on a daily basis. If it was normal, my life would be so much better. So yes, yes, it is a separate entity from my essence! 🤣🤣
I am my own person, and my brain is just a passenger.
Psyche and Soma. Separate entities that work hand in hand but sometimes keep secrets from each other.
Sometimes my brain doesn’t take care of its flesh vehicle for a while; typical situation is I don’t get a shower or shave for a little too long. And then my brain becomes convinced that it doesn’t like itself very much. Then another part of my brain realizes what’s going on, but has learned that my brain isn’t very reliable, and is also fairly open to suggestion. So my brain takes a shower and shaves and puts on clean clothes, and then my brain is tricked into liking itself again.
It’s literally like playing peekaboo with your own self-esteem in the mirror.
Eh, wat. Is there any sane person who after a day of, say, real hard studying, cannot distinguish that “my brain and mind are tired from all the load they’ve pulled, but I am actually relieved it is finally over”?
On today’s episode of “Neurodivergent people claiming normal human behaviour as neurodivergent”:
I think I realised this the first time I heard someone talk about ego death or derealization as a result of a drug trip and I was like oh so like that feeling in between two rooms when you die and everything stops just before the new room’s program loads another you up?
It’s pretty much every post in this community.
Except, every time I talk about my brain as if it was a separate entity to other people they get annoyed at the implication that my actions aren’t simply my pure and magical free will.
I’m only autistic though not ADHD. At least as far as I know. And this tends comes from any person (though typically allistic in particular), not just neurotypical people.
Well, yeah, no shit.
Maybe provide an example, because I’m picturing someone making a mistake and claiming it was “their brain that made them do it”. Which, ND or otherwise, is a lame ass excuse. If it actually was a direct consequence of being ND then I would at least expect the respect of discussing it in a mature way.
Trouble saying “socially constructive lies” instead of either uncomfortable silence or even just saying the uncouth thing out loud, avoiding talking over people and vocal volume control, hang ups relating to autistic perfectionism, obsessive behavior in general.
Like, these aren’t really things I can avoid doing. I know because I’ve tried. I mean, I can temporarily stop but that just usually leads to becoming incredibly burnt out, alienated, or depressed.
On a meta level, I don’t believe in free will anyway.
You would be surprised how much of normal as “sane” is not normal as “the way most people are”
Yeah even anecdotally everyone I’ve ever got to know really well turned out to be just as fucked up as everyone else. But like some people do this kind of chemistry with their fucked-upedness where they hijack it to the benefit of themselves or others.
Pardon my subjectiveposting
It takes skill and a certain level of being humble. Yeah, I like such people too
Most people would probably just throw a blanket statement like “I’m exhausted” and call it a day.
Telling people “Sorry, my brain is tired” doesn’t really sound convincing to others, even though that best describes how I might feel.
Damn. True that
Your conscious brain is like 10% of your brain. The other 90% doesn’t follow instructions and needs to be carefully trained and complained about
Only people with ADHD have a cerebellum. For everyone else, it’s 100% prefrontal cortex. Crazy we even call it prefrontal, given that it’s how the entire brain functions, no exceptions.
Anyone else get tired of telling their heart to beat, diaphragm to move, and eyes to moisturize? Its God damn exhausting is what it is
The cerebellum sounds like a co-processor, like how old computers had math co-processors.
Still, everyone has one, it isn’t limited to ADHD.
This is looking like an interesting read: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10321758/#T1
Autistic experience is talking about your entire body this way. “The body is irritated” or “the body is overwhelmed”.
Especially when shutting down, thinking like that helps cope with the feeling of being “helplessly trapped”.
The meat demands nap time but the soul craves 16 hours of Rimworld.
“the body needs a sacrifice” - eats fried chicken
ohshit.
Welcome aboard
It’s the “self” part that’s the illusion there. There’s just consciousness and its content. There’s no “you” in there that’s somehow separate from the process in your brain causing it to feel like something to be.
Yep, this is why it’s possible to “reason” ourselves into any position over time, we just have to feel a certain way for long enough for rational justifications to seem plausible.
(Makes it damn hard to derive meaning from anything after a while)
Meaning sure, but enjoyment is still right there. Maybe a little absurdity too, for a taste of the numinous.
And feelings/emotions are just mental shortcuts or high speed memory caches like in a cpu. They can be changed as well. Read “how emotions are made” by Lisa Barrett Feldman if you want to know more.
It really is. Haven’t you ever been trying to remember something, actively racking your brain to remember it, but it is completely lost. So you give up. You move on. Hours later, you’re talking to someone about dinner plans, driving in rush hour traffic, weighing the merits of Chinese vs Mexican, every part of your conscious mind handling the moment. And then suddenly your mind goes “DUSTIN HOFFMAN PLAYED CAPTAIN HOOK!”
That wasn’t “you”, the person, the conscious mind. That was a you that works backstage. They had to go down into the sub-basement to the deep stores, dig through a warehouse full of useless knowledge for the right factoid.
I call mine Derek. Derek just ran back up the stairs kicked in the door and delivered the query results after being dispatched hours ago. That wasn’t me that remembered that info. Derek did.
I’ve been calling mine Elmo for a couple decades. Because it’s little and annoying. Then that muskrat turd started getting called Elmo (I assume for the same reasons). I want my nickname for my subconscious back dammit
That shit byte me in many exams, it made me hate preparing for exams because I didn’t know if the effort was going to be worth it.
Courtesy of COVID I feel like a frustrated spectator dealing with poorer memory, and brain fog when I reach the limits of a much reduced intellectual stamina.
My brain is often an asshole and we argue every day.
Untrustworthy little bastard 🧠
Yeah, there’s me, and then there’s the One Who Knows Things. He’s not always helpful.
Encyclopedia: “Your mangled brain would like you to know there is a boxer called Contact Mike.”
I JUST WOKE UP! WHY WOULD I NEED THAT?! WHAT POSSIBLE STIMULUS COULD HAVE SUMMONED THAT?!
Brain: “you be seven missed text massages from Contact Mike”
Brain: “I said what I said”
And not always wise. Yet we seem to take its opinions at face value, and forget the true mind lingering behind, but always present
“I don’t know sbout your brain but mine is really bossy”
Laurie Anderson
wait till they find out about the belly brain, and how microbiota affects mood
Uh oh, my chronically low dopamine wants a word with you
(But you are also right)
Maybe you would have more dopamine if your gut microflora say you could have more dopamine!
2 billion bacteria can’t be wrong when they say cheese is a perfectly valid snack. Or meal.
The more cheeses, the more valid
I need to go get me some thrice-valid pizza
We’re all just a cluster of cells. Majority vote…
My microbiota are cranky little bitches when I haven’t eaten in a while lol
Or just because
Had a parent (in full denial about a possible ADHD adjacent diagnosis) excuse their child’s actions (defiantly running away from their carer and across a road) as “their brain must have been tired”.
FFS you are your brain*, the rest is just transport.
* I argue that your brain is just the substrate you run on and there can be several of you running there.
These ones are living the plural dream!
It’s crowded in here, can someone open a window?
Well, the eyes are the windows to the soul and they can be opened!
With a grapefruit spoon?
A grapefruit spoon and a lot of enthusiasm!
